Have you noticed that how people change around you. I mean you change a job, you develop a new interest and suddenly you find the regulars around you disappear and a new set of people around you. You may say that those who left your company were not really your own etc etc but then it is fascinating to see this change and understand human psychology.
As humans it is difficult to accept others as they are. We are looking forever to categorize us and others.
Don’t we say, she is not my type. Or she is too behenji/ she is too forward in her thinking etc.
Why am I rambling all this?
Because I have been experiencing this ‘phenomena’ for some years now.
In an age where it is fashionable to say that I am agnostic or atheistic, I developed an interest in spirituality. And then I came to know that I do not belong. Some asked me, “why? what is there in it?’ And some said, ‘It is alright if you develop an interest but don’t get too involved’
But that is not possible with me. Imagine standing on the seaside and being told, no you can’t get wet.
I don’t blame anybody. If they lost interest in me, it is a fact that I too lost interest in them. But then I am human, I have to feel a belongingness.
Recently in one o f the lectures, I heard this analogy which gave me a new direction; please read on:
There are three sets of devotees:
One, those who are like dewdrops on the petals of flowers. When the sun rises overhead, the dewdrops evaporate. Similarly such devotees, come, eat, listen. It takes a lot of time for them to absorb facts, most of the time whatever they learn evaporates and so it takes them a long time to change.
Second are those devotees who are like water droplets on lotus leaves. These devotees come; eat, listen and go. Nothing affects them. They will stay on as they are.
Then there are water droplets in oysters. They stay on for millions of years and transform into pearls.
So my wish is to be a droplet in an oyster. Let that water drop change into a pearl. Let my bhakti increase day by day. yes I will be isolated, yes I will be left alone but then finally one day, I will be ready to serve my Lord.
Amen to that.