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Our relationship had changed after my illness. We were in more friendly terms now.
I obeyed her and she obeyed me and so there was harmony but can there be any peace.
The husband had become grouchy. Even though I tried to probe, he refused to answer me.
The seventh day I just could not take it. I closed the bedroom door and asked what the matter was.
‘Why are you bothered? Go finish your assignment or go chat with Akhila?’, he said
Then I understood that he was being jealous and tried to pacify him. ‘No Heena. I understand that once we have kids, this is what is going to happen. You will be busy with yourself and completely neglect me’.
That set me thinking. It was such a tough job balancing relationships.
That weekend was long as there was a national festival, it was an opportune time for bonding and I planned an outing. Akhila would have finished her exam and we could just relax.
We went to the beach. The weather was good. The sun and the sand and the water helped us to get closer. I looked at Anand. He understood children so well. As both of them made sand dunes. I sat far away observing them.
Motherhood always scared me. Anand and me have been married for seven years and though everyone has stopped asking us when we will have kids, I know Anand yearns for a family of his own. Was I being selfish by denying a child to Anand, I didn’t know. I didn’t want a child just for having a child. I wanted to be a perfect mother.
But I was learning…..You could learn to be good along with your kid.. A kid can be a wonderful teacher. I was learning every day with Akhila.
As we relaxed on the beach, I realised that in these two weeks we had become family. Though Anand had been grouchy, he was completely in his element now. As I sat thinking our eyes met and locked. He understood me and smiled. I smiled back.
‘Do you want me to go somewhere else, so that you could keep on smiling’, it was Akhila and we started tickling her so that she was rolling in the sand.
And then Anand’s phone rang.
He answered it and all the color from his face disappeared.
Akhila’s mother was serious, we had to rush to her town.
(to be continued)